Holding Bitcoin, Letting Go of Shame

Money used to make me feel small.
Like I didn’t deserve comfort unless I earned it ten times over.

I flinched at receipts.
Avoided checking my balance.
Felt ashamed when I couldn’t "keep up."

Then I started holding Bitcoin — and I let go of some of that shame.

For years, I thought I was bad with money.
I missed bills. Made emotional purchases.
I thought wealth was for people who knew how to “play the game.”

I didn’t grow up talking about finance.
Money was stress, not strategy.

So I avoided it.
Until I couldn’t anymore.

Bitcoin found me during a spiral.
Scrolling Twitter. Half-crying. Wondering if I’d ever get ahead.

Someone shared a thread:
“Bitcoin isn’t about being rich. It’s about being sovereign.”

I didn’t fully get it. But I kept reading.

There was no judgment in the Bitcoin space — just learning.
Just possibility.

So I bought my first $15 worth.
Not as an investor. But as someone searching for stability.

And when I opened my wallet and saw it sitting there — mine, truly mine —
I felt a shift.

A kind of dignity I hadn’t felt before.

It wasn’t about how much.
It was about the why.

Because I was choosing.
Because I wasn’t afraid to learn anymore.

Some nights, I’d check scores on 우리카지노,
flip tabs between spending trackers and 카지노사이트,
but I always landed on that black-and-orange “B”.

Still there. Still steady. Still mine.

I began to talk about it.
Not loudly. But with honesty.

And each time I did, the shame got quieter.

Bitcoin didn’t erase my past.
But it helped me rewrite how I feel about it.

I no longer see money as proof of my worth.
I see it as a tool I’m finally learning to use — on my terms.

And that’s enough.

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